I have witnessed people who would say they are spiritual people but in my view, are less spiritual than the average atheist. Ouch - should I say such a thing?

They leave me with an impression that somehow they are elevated over others – they talk frequently about being in tune with the new frequencies, cast their eyes down on people who are displaying what would be considered general human qualities, and judging in a self-righteous way but in the same vein, somehow not acknowledging their own behavior is just as human as theirs.

You might find them on the surface give advice about leading spiritual lives, and behind close doors speak in judgement, and bitterness about others. You might feel afraid of acknowledging that you are afraid of their behavior because they condemn people who are fearful, for that is the ego, so it is suppressed, and when you are around them you behave like the Virgin Mary on Prozac.

Secretly you worry about the fact that you are afraid, and they are not, that maybe your ego is letting you down, and you need to go and get some healing pretty damn quick. You could of course, ask them to perform the hands-on-healing for this may be one of their fortes, yet secretly, you don’t want their hands anywhere on you, and of course, you couldn’t tell them that you are taking their advice and working on getting rid of toxic relationships, in case they are able to psychically work out it is them. 

I have perceived (as all of my life is from my eyes only) people destruct virtually all relationships around them, yet still manage to give advice about how to live a spiritually successful life – I am afraid because this is the potential within us all – to live such a dichotomy, a falsehood, a massive gap between both our light and our dark sides that the grand canyon would feel lost.

I am no longer afraid to say that I am afraid of people like this. My only lesson here, is to work through it, and maybe by accepting that this is potential within me, to reconcile it. My ego tells me that the people who have made me most afraid, are the people who would shout the loudest about their level of enlightenment – yet – and this is where it becomes a vicious circle – if they were reading this, may assume that I have the problem, and I have released our relationship because of my ego. And they would be right.

Because at the end of the day, this is about me, and my fears. I’m not different to you, we have the same potential. We both have the capacity for light and dark. My ego lets me know when the law of attraction is drawing the darkness out of me - like attracts like, and as such, I know I need to choose my relationships carefully. My ego lets me come to know fear - fear of who I can become if somehow I go ‘wrong’. I am really reflecting a potential in me for we can choose to live in either direction. We don’t get rid of the parts of us we don’t like - we bring them into balance. Ego can be found in all places, and cannot hide in the Church, Mosque or Healing Centre. My ego ‘prods’ me to check my intentions for doing what I am doing. It keeps me on the straight and narrow - it helps me to make business decisions - finding a balance of spiritual and material abundance (as is the number 8 in numerology - 8 connecting heaven with earth).

If you are getting to know yourself, don’t be afraid of what you see. Acknowledge it and work with it. When you look around you, or listen to people who seem to ‘be there’, remember that they are human too. Don’t replace your own truth with theirs. We’re all in this together.

Oh, and finally - I thank the ego - because it serves me well. If your ego pops in for afternoon tea, invite it in, and listen to what it has to say. As Jesus said “Love your enemies”.

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